Starting over...

Be careful what you ask for. God just might be listening and just might answer your hearts desires. Which is where I find myself these days. For 12+ years I sat on my kids rope swing that I somehow managed to affix to the large oak tree in our backyard. I miss it more than the house if I am honest. Tears were shed on that swing, prayers were whispered on that swing, desires poured out to God on that swing, babies were lulled on that swing, and laughter was shared on that swing. Whenever I am feeling overwhelmed, day-dreamy, or want to feel close to God, I think back to that old swing. Fall afternoons leaning back staring up into the newly changing leaves, listening as they gently fall to the ground, warm summer evenings swaying back and forth hoping for some sort of breeze, crisp,spring mornings swaying about staring at the white blossoms on the old dogwood tree . It was my refuge from the days worries , a safe place to think, and a familiar old friend that God comforted me through in life's ups and downs. How many requests to Him were given in that space. And day by day, little by little, He answered them. We transformed that house into a home and God transformed our family into something beautiful as well. Then one day the biggest request was finally answered. And when God answers a prayer He goes all the way. We sold our home for asking price in 3 weeks. The 3rd family to look at it made an offer. And within 1 month we were offered 3 jobs in San Antonio . So off we went. All 7 of us and the our beloved dog Redd. We packed the whole house ourselves, sold everything that was not worth moving, loaded up 3 cars and the truck and headed off for our new adventure. We didn't even have a home to live in , or know what schools the kids would go to, or what the future held. But we knew one thing, if God was able to get us this far why even bother worrying . Would He start us on a journey and then leave us in the dust? I learned to completely let go and never doubt what He was capable of, as long as it was in His will and His plan and His timing. We had tried things our way and that usually did not end up well. So yes waiting 12+ years was extremely hard, and letting go of control was hard, and learning to have hope again was hard but when I look back it was actually the easiest thing ever. So now I find myself starting all over again. New state, new city, new environment, new neighbors,  new schools, new weather, new home, new church, new job, new circumstances, new blessings. This is where we have been planted and there is where we will blossom. To say I am a little overwhelmed would be an understatement. A whole new house to make a "home" again. Am I up to the task? I am not as young as I was , entering into my 40's has been an adventure all on its own. New obstacles, new demands, lots and lots of changes. But isn't that what life is about? Always evolving, always changing, always the ability to start fresh each and every single day, to continuously "become" new. More blessings than you can count on all your fingers and toes. Watching my children become something beautiful as well. and rediscovering my husband can and is my best-friend. Someone to experience all that life has and all these new adventures together. What can I say about starting over, but that it is yet another new chapter to capture and document. Never forgetting where we started and how much more there is to experience. So maybe its time to put up a new swing in our new backyard, and create new memories. Never be afraid to start over and never be afraid to ask for more. But through it all never forget to be thankful and enjoy the starting over.